retrospection and prognostication

Dani from Postcards from the Mothership posted this meme (I don't even know what "meme" means) on her blog today. I thought I'd play along:

15 years ago today I would have been:

• um, fourteen and in grade 9 at Thom Collegiate in Regina
  
• newly single after breaking up with Ryan (aka, Ol' Daddy Sizzleguts who comments here sometimes) with whom I remained friends (and in fact we recently had our first playdate with our two boys... is that weird?)
  
• listening to jazz and the Beatles and wearing baggy jeans, bowling shirts and too much plaid - (sigh) ah, grunge.
  

10 years ago today I would have been:

• nineteen years old and completing my first year at Canadian Bible College
  
• having daily pity parties because Peter was going to be gone tree planting all summer
  
• starting a job search that would eventually lead me to work with my mom at SaskTel, the provincial phone company
  

5 years ago today I would have been:

• in Calgary, at home on maternity leave with 10 month old, Liam
  
• looking at housing ads so we could move out of the condo we were renting and into a real house (with a yard) so I could open a dayhome and not go back to work
  
• working at a gym and in better shape than before getting pregnant (another sigh)
  

1 year ago today I would have been:

• counting the hours til I could test to see whether I was pregnant (with Andrew)
  
• slowly, nervously packing
  
• hoping and praying for Peter's secondment to come through so the government would pay for our move to Ottawa

This year I am:

• looking forward to warm weather and being able to spend lots of time in the (newly fenced from last year) backyard WITH a garden to work in
  
• hoping to improve my photography skills - hopefully with a new lens... or two.
  
• so excited for Peter to be done language training and to find out what his actual job will be
  

Today I:

• am blindingly tired
• will enjoy using my clothes line and drying my clothes in the bright spring sun
  
• am missing my son and my dad
  

Next year I hope:

• to be less tired
  
• to be more organized
  
• to be completely out of debt
  

In five years I hope:

• to be living in Africa
  
• to have one more baby naturally and to have adopted (or be in the process of adopting) a child or pair of siblings
  
• to be homeschooling my then 10 year old Liam (sharp intake of breath)... 7 year old Simon (chin quivering)... 5 year old Andrew (eyes misting)... and any other additions to our family *see above*