Monday, November 9, 2009

feeling the pressure

NaBloPoMo is stressing me out! It's after 11:30pm and here I am, after a very full day, throwing a post together. I will try not to make this the norm, but today you'll have to take what you can get. Because not only is it late, but my mind is full of the stressful ramblings of a mother who just found out that he son very likely has scoliosis.

Peter and I just returned from a report session with our new chiropractor (can I take a moment to say "ahhhhhhh" after my first ajustment in over three years?), Dr Quirk. This last Wednesday, the boys and I all had initial exams, and Liam and I had x-rays taken. Tonight, the Dr first showed us the image of Liam's perfect neck, and then proceeded to stick up the x-ray of his torso. Initially, I thought it was a side view HIS SPINE WAS THAT CURVED, but it was infact a front view.

Looking at it, even an untrained eye can see a pronounced curve.

Looking at it, my skin started to prickle, my head began spinning and I was getting hot flashes. It felt like I had heat radiating out of my eyes. I had such a physical reaction to those images! My baby, my Liam, has something wrong with him. Something inside of him. Something THAT I HAD NO IDEA ABOUT. That has potential been there for years and we were doing nothing to correct.

I feel sick.

I know it's not the end of the world. It's not life-threatening. And Dr Quirk is confident that he can correct it, and that it might even be as bad as the x-ray suggested. But still. I don't like this feeling.


  1. So sorry to hear this. Yes it certainly is disconcerting. You are is NOT life threatening. I am praying that you will get excellent medical advice on how to correct this. Thankful that it has been diagnosed early. Love, Mora/Mom/Nana

  2. The good thing is that he's still young and there is plenty of time to get it corrected. I have a friend who has scoliosis and with the work she did to correct it when she was young, as an adult you'd never know...and she is a normal, active adult...which of course doesn't change the way I know you feel as a mom knowing something was wrong and you didn't know about it.

    And...I know how you feel about the pressure of NaBloPoMo...I'm doing NaNoWriMo...and only have 2900 of my 50000 words down....AAAAHHHHH!

  3. Ugh. The things that life throws at you. Seriously.

    First of all, I've never been adjusted by anybody. The thought of it, scares the crap out of me. I can't imagine my bones making any kind of popping sounds, and it being a good thing. I bet I'd feel amazing (especially because of the back problems I suffer because of the girls up top, ya know), but... I'm just scared.

    Now, a scoliosis story. I remember the scoliosis checks that we had to go through at school. We'd take our shirt off in the locker room (for an overweight kid, this day was the most embarrassing day ever, I almost got sick over the thought of having to let somebody see my skin), bend over, and the gym teacher would very quickly look at our spine. MY checkup, went fine (aside from my being completely mortified), but my best friend and her twin sister, were told that they might have scoliosis. And they did. After being checked up by doctors, they both had to wear back braces for YEARS, and have surgeries, and... it must have been horrible for them. But now, their backs are both completely fine, and they're both happily married, no more braces, no more surgeries, its all said and done.

    Not much of a story, but...

    Anyways. I'll be thinking of you today, as I'm sure you're filled with all sorts of emotions. Maybe today would be a good day for some photography. Take your emotions out on your camera :)

  4. I totally get this. This is from the woman who cried when my oldest son was discovered to have a cavity. I bring my boys to the chiro for maintenance adjustments every few months. It is so worth it.

    I can't even imagine doing NaBloPoMo. Good for you for going for it.

  5. I'm so sorry to hear the news...I hope you're hanging in there okay. It's good to hear that it's treatable, and it's also good that it was caught early. It's going to be okay!

  6. ***hugs*** for you, and your wee one! As everyone else said, it's going to be okay. I know you know this,and I know that what your mind knows and what your heart feels are two very different things. Hang in there.

  7. I'm sorry to hear your news. I really hope he can fix it and it's not too serious. You couldn't have known so try not to beat yourself up too much.

  8. Sorry to hear that...But sincerly I am convicted than dr. Quirk will fix him!! Ho gosh I miss dr.Quirk!!!
    Love you

  9. NaBloPoMo?? You totally rock. I could never in a million years manage that!

    I'm so sorry for your scary news. No wonder you are scared and feel overwhelmed - so normal for a loving mother to feel that way. I'm sure as you learn more about this things will begin to make sense and you will figure it all out. Hang in there!

  10. Oh wait - My last comment is probably confusing re: "genre" and whatnot. There's also that national book writing thing going on, too and I got that confused with NaBloPoMo :)

  11. NaBloPoMo used to stress me out too, but you do get used to it :)

    Good for you on the chiropractic front! The first step is just going. Now the chiropractor can help. People tend to live with the aches and pains and wait for the pains to go away. Chances are Liam may not have even felt bad, so you wouldn't have been able to figure out something was wrong.

    Hang in there - and good luck. I started going to my chiropractor over 9 years ago. I love it. :)

  12. My husband has a curved spine, and it hasn't caused him any real grief. He also never went to the chiropracter until after we got married... and doesn't make it a regular occurance. I wouldn't worry about it terribly much... although I know how you feel and felt the same way seeing that x-ray 4 years ago...


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